Because of Fear

I am tormented by these thoughts
This fear that overwhelms me
Drowning
Leaving me gasping for air

I am scared and he knows it
If fully, I only wish I knew

I am lost in these murky waters
I can not see clearly

My feelings swept away with the tides
And I want them back

I do not understand how I can see him so vividly, but
not see what I feel for him as well

I thought that I did like him
...wait...
I know I did
...no...
I am sure I still do
I am just scared
Buried in this feeling of fear
Loosing everything I have ever known
All because I am scared of being hurt again

P.S. Alex if your reading this I am sorry that I am so afraid and also know that this whole thing isn't true just the scared part, but you already knew that