Neglected by Heaven

Let me weep this poem as heaven's gate close
Let me send the scent of blame to your grave
I'll paint you with my soul, so scarred and alone
While I set my darkest thought on blazing fire
Watching as my ashes climb back to heaven's desire
Come and shine into my lost heart tonight
Blind my fears of everything between life and death
Blind all my fears with haunting dark light
Awake me in the shadows where ice is my breath
I can't wait for a guardian angel anymore
Time has grown still, I can't stand to watch or ignore

Hope is like a mirror where we see nothing but a reflection
A ghostly shaped image of heaven too far away
Love and joy is a joke; a foul creation
Leaving a trail where bloodthirsty wolverines lay
Turning from sweet to sour in a matter of days
Scorching the world with it's cruel embrace
Haven't you longed to be free like me
Wandering back to a time where we knew nothing at all
Where everything was possible for the eye to see
It's far too late for this hungry heart to recall
Losing all faith in the things I've achieved
Seized inside a maze where I have been deceived.

I loath what I've become in these weary lies
Hating all the pain injected within my mind
These rose thorns still prick as they die
Reminding me the dark dreams; sadly pushed aside
With stress in my heart and changes to my soul
Let me cry this poem as a tomb of dead control