Imaginary pain

Its time i write my feelings out down on paper
hoping that what i got to say doesn't offend you in anyway
The hurt I've gone through the past 3years
was what drove me insane
taking sugar pills to take away the imaginary pain as you say
But I'm sitting in the dark
with little lights on
in the corner of the devils gates
pushed away my mother made me believe i didn't love her
why this sick game
torture of many lonely nights
trying to settle a deal with the heavens to take away the imaginary pain but thinking it was all in my mind so i took a whole bunch of pills on the low called sevens so maybe i could get into heavens gates and release the imaginary pain