Throwing in the Towel

Im searching for a rush
That can make me feel alive
Dodging Ducking Diving
Like Im fighting for my life

I speed through the streets
I push it to the limit
Im not trying to kill myself
I have a life, and trying to live it

Id gotten used to Iraq
My heart pounding every day
I was the predator
And they were the prey

My adrenaline was pumping
My brain was in overdrive
I heard and saw everything
Just trying to make it home alive

Bullets whizzing by me
Mortars landing close by
Knowing the next one that hits
Could easily end my life

Now Im back in the states
Sitting behind a desk
Cause the thrills that I seek
Let me injure my leg

I have to walk with a cane
Limping from here to there
People look at me weird
Most of them stop and stare

Im only twenty one
But I feel like an old man
I take pain pills all day
And try to walk when I can

Now Im done for life
No more thrills to seek
I cant do anything
My future looks bleak

So Im giving up
And Im giving in
I felt alive over there
But never again