Crush of a lifetime

Popular boy, so smooth, so coy
comb your hair, crack a smile
don't even know I'm there
admiring your smile

dream of you, you kiss her,
put your arm around the pretty girl
makes me want to hurl
as my emotions unfurl

yes, i know, its sad and pathetic
but just one glace and I'm ecstatic
flash your brown eyes,wishing you were you mine
can't grasp what is unattainable,
and all my hopes are wasted and shameful

your loyalty,your laugh, it only attracts me more,
i watch your every move until i can't see behind closed doors
the bliss as u walk in, the way my heart jumps when u grin

pull her in, give her a kiss
I'm on the sidelines daydreaming,
no longer scheming, you have what u want,the essence of perfection,
i can deal with constant rejection

feel these tears sting my eyes, as u walk hand in hand, i guess I'll never understand,
what u were after, what you had been looking for, it wasn't me, u needed more

one kiss from u would complete my life, but i stand in distance,on a lower level of the social chain,
u probably don't even remember my name, but i know yours, first,middle, and last
id tell you it if u stopped, instead of passed

i admired you from afar for 6 years now,
don't ask me why, or even how, such a sculpted body, with a beautiful soul, completed with the hot-shot role

the Mr.smooth, Mr. cool, gliding by the halls in school,
strike a pose, walk by me
i know we aren't meant to be
that small infraction of reality, doesn't seem to bother me

still i dream, forever wishful thinking, i can tell ur happy, i gave up on getting to you, years ago, but i left a piece of my heart at that small talent show,

6 long years ago, u played a smooth talker in a school play,
u haven't changed since that day,
you still always have the right thing to say

so I'll continue to dream,and live in my imaginary place, where you stroke the silhouette of my face, lean in and shut your eyes, as my breath shortens to an end.....

and you kiss your girlfriend.