I want to express how i really feel
but would they think I'm crazy see i love everyone so much
every things just a maybe
i don't know whether i want to die
and i don't think i can tell the truth
i say I'm always in fights
and Ive broken my tooth
i make thins seem more then they are
i also that to the next step
see now one day everyone will find out
ill make a bet
Ive told people my life sucks
i have no family nor will to stay alive
and yet every given moment
I'm finding another better way to survive
i pretend to do something i don't
and have the things i wish i had
i pretend to be with other people
i thing this might be bad
i have those mixed feelings about some people
and i don't know what to do
if anyone finds out
it will stick to me like glue
I'm really just this shy person
i guess just trying to get attention
its like I'm this bad a s s chick
thats never got detention
people think I'm this person I'm not
truthfully i want to be 4 years older
everything now is just so messed up
i wish everything would organize in a folder
life takes its turns and it has its edges
i know you have to learn to deal
the years of junior high
is the time i learn to feel
i know Ive screwed up my life
and yet i seem to stay
these are my confessions
and I'm just starting to pay
everything Ive hidden inside
and all the things Ive denied
are breaking through
