Emotional Frame of Mind

Tears telling all my secrets
As they spill down my face
My smile frozen in place
Well...it worked for a little while...

I've been driven past my breaking point
So I succumb to all the hate
And just believe it as my fate
Blindly accepting what I'm given...

But it doesn't mater to me anymore
I can't feel anything, I'm so numb
I sit cold and alone, waiting for any feelings to come
But they never do...

I feel no anger or fear
I would welcome even pain
It's a feeling all the same
I yearn to feel something but cold...

As I try to hide my face
My tears stream down
Accompanied without a sound
I cry to lie to everyone...

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I try to make them believe I still feel something
But not even tears of pain come close to being real
So I'm freezing in the flames of a hell I cannot feel
I feel nothing but cold.

Eyes opened wide to the world around me
Searching for emotions I've heard so much about
Waiting for them all the while swimming in the doubt
Emotions don't exist; it's all just a frame of mind.

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