In my heart is an image of a girl I used to know
A version of myself long forgotten, long let go
The face that I see now staring back at me is fake
And I can't help but stop and think that this is all one big mistake
The girl that you see is a cold and empty shell
A product of this useless world, this never ending hell
This life that I am "living" has grown lifeless and I smile
Cause it's just so goddamn funny yet so gloomy all the while
The irony of it hit me like a cold heartless slap
Winding me so tight I just know I'm going to snap
Fits of useless thoughts brought on by nothing real
Wishing it was over, praying not to feel
Isolation and desperation take over a useless mind
Seeking for something I somehow know I'll never find
Hope is just another four letter futile word
And the concept of it seems to be something so absurd
I try to hold myself up strong but in the end I come up short
And my pride stops me from reaching out for some overdue support
I hate myself so much when I find I'm in this state
And this overwhelming emptiness makes me so irate
Because it's a feeling that I'm powerless to prevent
I'd give up everything and more to cease this endless torment
The weakness I possess fills me with distain
And an overwhelming feeling of coldness I can't explain
Knowing what I am and what I'll always be
Fills my heart with dread, knowing I'll always just be me.
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