Dieing Inside

My knees buckle with the weight of my fears
I drown in a sea of my own salty tears
I weep in the night from all of the pain
I make myself bleed to keep my mind sane
I dread what I'd see if I opened my eyes
And let the world into my hand crafted disguise
With my mask on I'll keep dieing inside
But I've never found a reason not to hide.

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