The Prison of my Mind

Things got too hard to handle
I couldn't take it anymore
So I started building walls
But I forgot to make a door
My mind I put inside it
So safely it would stay
But now I can not reach it
It's trapped too far away
So I grasp a blade so tightly
And run it down my arm
To see if I can feel the pain
By causing myself harm
But the blood runs quickly downward
And still I feel no hurt
So I press a little harder
Hoping maybe that will work
But my mind is taken hostage
By my hopefulness to heal
And now I can't get at it
So no pain do I feel
I'm fallen on the floor now
My breath coming in gasps
And still I cannot feel it
My life is now my past
And my mind finally escapes
From its imprisoned state
It's finally free to wonder
In heaven it shall stay