I'm Sorry

I know I shouldn't do it
I know that it is wrong
I know there's ways around it
It's just that I'm not strong

I'm trying hard to please you
To mean each word I said
I know that I can't help you
If I should end up dead

But then the night grows darker
The stormy waves appear
The light soon ends up darker
My skin I need to tear

I try to fight the feelings
But slowly I lose ground
And suddenly those feelings
Start causing me to drown

And so I look around me
For something sharp to hold
To cease the storms around me
I have to be more bold

I end the pain as quickly
As the blood running down my arm
But the guilt comes just as quickly
For causing myself harm

I know I disappoint you
I just can't seem to stop
Because even though I love you
I think I'm gonna pop

The feelings slowly choke me
My words lose all their fight
And though the guilt overtakes me
There is no end in sight

And so I say I'm sorry
For doing all I do
For my mistakes I'm sorry
I hope you forgive me too