In my heartbrakes

Im sitting here in my heartbrakes
Waiting on a beautiful boy to save me from my mistakes
But he's too perfect
He's not real
I can't forgive him of his lies
He blinded me by them time and time again
He cares, he hates he loves
He only want me when he can't have me
When he has me, he doesn't want me
Am I not good enough
Is he too good
And all this time my heart brakes over and over again
Everyday it dissolves more and more
Until I have nothing left
He will take everything of me