The girl you see

This girl you see
it isn't the real me
beneath the surface
i think I'm worthless

this pain and despair
i can no longer bare
everyone hurting you
if only they knew

if only they knew i went back
back to my old ways
of red dripping from my skin
for scars that stay

the emotion i feel
with a razor i peal
to watch the blood flow
is the only way i know

this is not a cry out
my habit isn't a checkout
i don't want to end my life
all i do is pick up the knife