Waste of Time

There are so many emotions
Ones that I cannot understand
Ones that fill me with regret
When I fail to grasp your hand

Why I act this way, you wonder
But you'll never really know
I cannot explain it either
So why don't we just let it go

I loved you, once upon a time
And perhaps I still do
But our fate is in your hands
It's totally up to you

I no longer value life
Or what it has to provide
I linger with confused thoughts
Tearing me from the inside

I don't get you at times
Arn't you afraid of losing?
There's no win win with me
But your persistance is amusing