Don't Deserve This Life

I'm sorry...
sorry for whatever I did,
to deserve this life.

It's impossible for me to be happy.
I smile but that is not happiness.
It's impossible for me to keep a smile.
Pain & tears always overcome it.

Like a child with building blocks,
whenever I finish climbing to the top,
they always collapse completely.

Good things make me cry
because they are a reminder,
reminding me of what I don't have.
Bad things make me cry
because there are so many that I just can't deal with.

No one can help.
They try to make me feel better,
and they try to listen.
Then they just get frustrated,
and give up and never try again.

I hate my life.
Good things are temporary,
while the bad keep multiplying.
I just want a everything to go away.

I want a complete new start and complete new life,
but I know that's just an impossible idea of mine.

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