Hey-I know this is going to sound lame...but I know how you feel. Its like every time you get happy, something comes by to screw it all up. Thats the story of my life. But those people usually only get frustrated because they dont know how to help you out. Thats been my experience with people anyway. you are an awesome poet though. So if you want to email me or check out my poems feel free to. Id appreciate what you have to say. My email is robyn_ohio@hotmail.com. Youre an awesome poet...keep writing!