In a new place
Here I am an adult to others
But I was not ready
Mind or body.
I lost my life lines three months before
Friends of darkness
Those who did not need me
Lost in faded memories.
I made new friends in my new place
People of the light
Or so I thought
For seven months we laughed and played
They were friends I thought
Just friends
But those seven months passed by
Like day into night
I blinked
And with a swoop
The angel of fate took my world away
Again
The end of my world came with the end of freshman year.
Then three, hot summer months flew by like the summer bids
Old memories faded
Another year came and gone.
I made more friends
Or so I thought
They were kinder, sweeter, and more fun
They became a new world
My new world
Then
Like the blue sky turned to a dark night
Everything was taken away
Fateâ??s hand again
Took my world from under me
I blinked
And everyone was gone.
This time I felt the pain
Like knives piercing through my frail heart
I was alone again
This time
No one would find me
No one would want me
I remembered crying for nights on end
Being so alone
I'd call for someone
Anyone
To be here with me
To be my companion
But no one came
No one cried my name
I was once again swallowed up
Swallowed by the darkness in my mind.
Sophomore year ended
And with it
I thought would also be my life.
My third year of high school started now
And with the hopeful, shattered heart I tried to piece back together
I hoped once again that I'd have friends
And I found her
A lost part of my past
Was found
We were friends now
Yet
A gaping hole held us apart
But she was my friend
And her friends were my friends as well
We were all one
But just as I was beginning to loose hope
Knowing that the hand of fate
Would come to tear down my already tattered world
An angel came.
He reached out his hands
And took me into his arms
He embraced me and loved me
I felt safe with him
I felt protected
I could do anything
But now that heâ??s here
Now that I found new friends
I am still scared
Frightened of the future
Would fate again shatter my world?
Or would she just hold my desires within my armâ??s reach?
I don't know what the future holds
And I an scared
My beloved may be here today
And gone tomorrow
In my heart I am expecting him to leave
I am expecting everyone to go away
What choice do I have?
I pray that when I blink
Everyone will still be there
Out in front of me
I try to see the good over the bad
But what choice do I have
With fate's shadow hovering over me?
Knowing that at any moment
I could loose everyone I know
What choice do I have?
With the little light of hope I have left
I pray
That when I come to school
My friends would still be there
Each day.
