Just thinking

Sitting here thinking of everything I had, the more I think about it maybe this isn't so bad
I love you so much it hurts me, my life feels sometime shattered, but I guess being alone is better than being battered
I remember when we were teens I was pregnant with your little queen, you brought me roses everyday to school, although so young at the time I knew I loved you
Than something had began to change, your love was different you were not the same
You started to abuse me and make me feel like sh*t, but I stuck by you without throwing a fit
I remember all the times you told me you loved me with all your heart, I wish you would have meant it cause my heart would not be broken apart
I also remember all the times that we made love, you were my first, my last, my only the man I dreamed of
I remember the night at the movies you took me by my hand, you walked me to a corner I tried to understand
You kissed me on my lips and knelt down on your knee, you told me to marry you and that all this time it was only me
Than again the sadness the evil that tore us apart, demons crept within you and tore away your heart
You started to be cruel you didn't even care, now I think about you and I know your no longer there
The guy I met eight years ago Is not the guy I know today, because that special someone would have never left me this way
I know there will be times you may think of me, but I can no longer wait for the demons to let you free
If you only loved me and let nothing else get in the way, I guarantee you boy god would have helped us stay
But now I know its over, you don't even bother to call, the kids are waiting for you but they don't know you let yourself fall
I sometimes wonder if there is any hope, but after all the painful years I need to let myself cope
Don't get me wrong you made an fool out of me, but it doesn't change the love in my heart that I hold for thee
I guess there is a reason for things to come to an end, I only wish I had that boy that brought me roses and knelt down on his knee again.