A Dragon once told me "Giving up doesn't mean your weak; It means your strong enough to move on." Then he disappeared into the flames on my right side. I could hear screaming, crying, fire burning souls.
For hours I sat there, flames blazing around me. I thought of the quotes this Dragon told me, he said it with such pride..I said to myself "I want to be strong. Giving up will help me be free."
A Fairy told me "Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes."
She smiled so sweetly and looked me in the eye then said "My love please let yourself free into the world."
Then she flew away, out the other side, the side with light blue colds that looked like candy floss, smiling faces, such bright happy eyes.
As I sit in the middle of this circle. One side fill of joy, the other screaming pain.
I think of my mother, how much she does for me, how much she loves me. I think of my sisters, my brother, my whole family. What would they think? If I left them with no goodbye. I think of my friends, my boyfriend, I couldn't live if they left me like this..
Tears begin to fall from my eyes as I realise I'm fighting back. I have people I love, I have people who love me. As I stand I feel so weak.. I take a step to wards to the bright side, I hear them calling my name, I know this is the right option.
I take one last breath in this unknown then that my first step into happiness.
I open my eyes.. I find myself, not in the happy heaven, not in the ashes of hell but in my bedroom. The same cold feeling, the same old colour, no fire, no candy floss clouds but no numb confused feeling either.
My boyfriend said to me "I tell you I love you everyday, in fear that tomorrow isn't another." I now know, I've made the right choice. I have to attack life, it's going to kill me anyway!
