It's hard to keep breathing when I realize,
how many breaths I still have to take.
It's hard to keep smiling when I realize,
how many of those smiles are fake.
It's hard to keep running when I realize,
how many steps are still to come.
It's hard to be strong when I realize,
how I only come undone.
It's hard to keep reaching when I realize,
how high I have to go to reach the top.
It's hard to keep healing when I realize,
how this cutting doesn't seem to stop.
It's hard to keep loving when I realize,
how all love will soon die.
It's hard to keep forgiving when I realize,
how all forgiveness is a lie.
It's hard to keep truthful when I realize,
how the truth brings on so much pain.
It's hard to keep writing when I realize,
how all the words will be erased.
It's hard to keep believing when I realize,
how it's all a fairytale.
It's hard to keep trying when I realize,
how many times I have tried and failed.
It's hard to keep dreaming when I realize,
how in these dreams, I am scared.
It's hard to keep watching when I realize,
how bad this world is being teared.
It's hard to keep flying when I realize,
my wings have surely torn.
It's hard to keep growing when I realize,
no one wanted to ever be born.
It's hard to keep voicing opinions when I realize,
no one will stand by my side.
It's hard to keep dancing when I realize,
how I've fallen every time.
It's hard to keep so-longing when I realize,
that they are never coming back.
It's hard to keep shining when I realize,
how all the world has turned black.
It's hard to keep hoping when I realize,
how the hopeful ones leave this land.
It's hard to keep praying when I realize,
how no one will come take my hand.
It's hard to keep going I've realized,
but I know God is here with me.
It's a hard life but we must live it,
so then someday, with Him, be free.
