Feel Like This

Y does it feel this way?
y does it feel so awkward,
To see my own mum
and sister in the mornings?

I walk out of my bedroom,
I get ready in silence
As my mum and sister talk.
I feel so unwanted.

Still not a word said,
As the morning goes by.
\"Bye Sara\"
Is all that was said.

I feel like i dont belong,
in this family of mine.
Something tells me i should go
but when i look at my mum...

I feel a completely different feeling.
Like, i cant leave her,
i know im hard to handle,
i know im a pain.

But i dont mean to hurt anyone
or make anyone sad.
im sorry for hurting you
Im sorry for every wrong thing i do!

Im sorry for trying to make my life interesting
In a wat there is no need!
I realize the damage i have caused,
i have learned so much!

I realized who my true friends are,
i now know who i can trust.
I have alot going thru my mind.
n there-fore i cant find...

What to do
and what is right
coz my thoughts r so confusing
n my mind is all bottled up.

I cant think straight,
i just wanna be normal.
i cant wait
any longer then this.

I just cant wait
4 my mind to be set free
and the old side of me
will be released...