I wished those painful thoughts
That have cursed me would go away
But the deep cuts in my heart
feel as if it's vacant
Nothing to fill my heart with happiness
Cursed day by day
Sorrowful hearts that surrounded me
A burden that I can never let go
every night nightmares that have haunted me for years
I take all the pain of all those sorrowful hearts
I suffer
Not them
I wonder though
my mind could find something happy that will fill me up with joy
I can't live like this forever
Nothing but terrible sadness that seems to go on for eternity
I search and search
to find just one happy memory that had been hidden from me
I find nothing
I held a gun to my forehead
Thinking just once more for one happy memory
There isn't any I could find
Just horrible thoughts
The shot of the gun echoed through the dark alley ways of the city
I could feel nothing
I could not think of horrible thoughts
I became lifeless
I became a soul that had escaped from the curse of sorrow
All I had to do was die.
