[i wrote this last year. So tell me what u think. plz and thank u. i'll return da favor to one of ur poems.]
Deep down in my heart and soul,
I hate the life I'm in.
It's like I keep playing the same stupid game,
And still, I will not win.
I fill everyone with grief,
There's pain but there is no ointment.
I feel the people all around me,
I can see their disappointment.
Everybody says they care,
But I don't believe them.
I wish I could just disappear,
So I can give them all their freedom.
My Mom, she just doesn't understand.
And takes that put on me.
But I try my best to make her proud,
But that she doesn't see.
My dad, that's its own story.
All he thinks about is who I'm having sex with.
He thinks a bunch of boys like me,
Even though I'm a virgin.
My brother, he's too much for me,
He only wants to see me in trouble,
He hates me, and yes, sometimes I dislike him too,
But deep down I still love him.
I don't understand why I'm such a burden.
Why does it have to be me?
Pretty soon I'm going to end it all,
And no longer live in this misery.
I'm just a big ol' thing,
How much can one person take?
I'm useless, fat and ugly too,
I'm just one big mistake.
Hopefully things will get better,
But I doubt it if I'm still here.
But good news, Wally, Mom and Dad,
I only have three months and two more years.
