Do they care?

This feeling of emptiness is overwhelming
i feel like all of my friends have left me
i have always been there for them
and i dont know what i did wrong
i guess I'm just not as fake as all the others
its hard for me to open up
nobody understands how hard it is for me
i have so many problems that nobody knows about
everyone thinks I'm happy and nothing could be bothering me
but there is so much going on that you cant see
they never would think that i could do something like suicide
but i have so many things that i hide
none of them have taken the time to see the real me
not even my family can see
nobody knows who i am or what I'm about
they think they do
but they have no clue
I'm so sad and depressed
i have no idea what to do
suicide is something i think about but i will never do
i just sometimes wonder who would care if i died?
i know my family would but would my so called "friends"
this is pain that will never end