You Never Thought

Have you ever been,
looked right through,
or ever have people,
never notice you?

Have you ever been,
too sad to care,
or ever thought it was better,
for you not to be there?

Have you ever looked forward,
to your dying day,
or ever been told,
"We don't care if you stay!"?

Have you ever thought,
nothing here was real,
or ever been,
too numb to feel?

Have you ever kept,
every feeling inside,
or ever wished,
today you could've died?

Have you ever wore,
a big fake smile,
or ever ran away,
just a couple of miles?

Have you ever been,
addicted to self-harm,
or ever loved the sight,
of blood down your arm?

Have you ever been told,
it's wrong to be you,
or ever thought,
abused love is true?

Have you ever been afraid to walk,
down the halls at school,
'cause if you didn't do what he said,
you'd be made into a fool?

Have you ever believed,
eating was not right,
or ever been so disgusted,
with your own sight?

Have you ever been lied to,
all of your life,
or ever made friends,
with that trusty knife?

I bet you never thought,
of these things at all,
because you're not the one,
about to take your last fall.

I guess you never noticed.
I guess you never cared.
So now I can kill myself.
Even though I'm so scared!