Once i thought i had everything worked out...
that i knew where i was going in my life...
my future was in your eyes the day i met you...
i knew somehow that you\'d be there...
i just thought you\'d play a different role...
i know we\'ll always be the best of friends....
i just hoped one day there\'d be more...
and still maybe there will be one day...
but it\'s so obviously not for right now.....
so i\'ll have to smile and just be happy.....
that when i\'m upset you\'ll hold me close...
or wipe my tears when i\'m crying....
i know that you\'ll be there when i need you...
that all i have to do is call and you\'ll come...
know that no matter where we are in life...
i\'ll be there for you too no matter what....
even if we\'re oceans apart i\'ll be there...
i think i\'ll always want to hear your voice...
i want to cry when i think about losing you...
even if it\'s just losing a frienship....
i don\'t know what\'s so wrong with me.....
i don\'t know why i feel so horribly.....
all i\'ve ever wanted was everything...
the beautuiful house and yard....
the loving handsome husband...
the job i\'d love to go to everyday....
the children i could unconditionally love....
i thought you\'d be in that dream...
i thought you\'d give me everything....
but it all seems so entirely impossible....
i want to be held forever in your arms...
in that special way you hold me each time...
i thought it would be so wonderful...
but it ended in a nightmare.....
somehow it seems so much better...
maybe one day my dreams will come true...
and maybe in 10 years you\'ll still be who i call...
when i can\'t handle all that\'s going on....
maybe i\'ll still be able to lean on you....
so memories i\'ll hold on to tightly...
untill i\'m actually able to let them go...
i\'m terrified of you because i care about you so...
i want to believe all the promises you make....
but i\'m not sure if i\'ll be able to...
so i\'ll just try hard to live in the now....
and stop dying for all my tomorrows...
i\'ll hold on to all our yesterdays....
and hope that you\'ll be in my future...
but i guess that\'s all anyone can do...
i hope you\'ll always know that i\'m here...
i hope you\'ll always want to be near me...
i hope we\'ll always be this close....
i hope we dont let distance seperate us....
but hoping is all i have to hold on to right now...
i dont know what\'s to come with the morning sun...
so just please dont break me completely apart...
because in our friendship i give you my whole heart.....
