It Wasn't Enough

She sits at the bar upon the stool
Sipping away her pain
Slowly drowning her memory
In more than mere champagne

After a few rounds of the hard stuff
She still recalls her frustration
So she grabs her purse and her car keys
Unknowing of her destination

Getting behind the wheel and knowing
She shouldn't go anywhere
But the key enters the ignition
And revs her heart to a new gear

Red, yellow, and green all look alike
Alcohol blurs them into one
But she doesn't know the difference
As she continues on with her "fun"

But the "fun" soon turns into disaster
When she can't read the stop sign
Slamming on her brakes to no avail
She just passed the knick of time

Later on that night she wakes up
In a hospital gown and bed
The migraine coming on strong now
Pain rushing to her head

Nurses and doctors flood around her
Soon the cops roll into her room
Finally it's her turn to question
As sorrow her soul consumes

"Who was in the other car
That I know I must have wrecked?
Please tell me that no one was hurt.
I know by now you have checked."

The officer looked down in her eyes
And knew now wasn't the time
But she pleaded with him to tell her
And he held off the urge to fight.

"Ma'am, that white SUV you had hit
From wherever you had been heading
Contained a young woman and man
Coming from their own wedding."

"No," she cried as she covered her face
With the shame that now filled her heart
"How could this happen to me I don't know."
She thought as she was falling apart

She'd just wanted to forget a while
About the problems haunting her life
But now they were back attacking her
With a newfound stength in their fight

New sorrows were there to deal with
New reasons to want to give up
And it was all due to her drinking
And deciding that wasn't enough