Repeat cycle

Flooding thoughts...
conflicting emotions...
overwhelmed body.

turn the music up
drown the sorrows
stop the thoughts

i just want to forget it all
if i didnt care
i could move on and forget
cause the eternal pain to end

but i care more than life itself
i try to forget whats there
and push everyone away
but it intensifies the pain
i cant do it

too much pain...regret...sorrow
the music ends
the flood returns

now i'm a wreck
too many thoughts
where's the solution

this is it
too much to handle
here's the blade
end it all
let the pain flow

i awaken
tear stained face
aching body
dry blood on my arms

again the thoughts come flooding back
the cycle beings again
how long will this last