The truth

The deadness i feel is it normal?
i am so confused please help?
my last few word of desperate crys do u hear me?this poison has set in like a sin i makes me sad to see my self is that wrong?every body hates but i was taught well don't hate the game hate the player is a common saying well i don't hate life i hate me for trying there are so many of us whats one less not a grieving loss but another tomb i don't deserve to live they say you can only truly hate who you truly love well that is not true once you get past my skin you see within and are as sacred as me when i close my eyes to sleep just a false hope that i will make it both homes seem down so lets cheer them up as i say good bye see you in the forest ill be with the birds but they don't even want me where else would they send me the true hell is life and what did i do to get here it is masked with love peace and wonder but there is no love just business there is no peace just war wonder is only as far as your mind will take you mine is sick and twisted like a licorice stick Cherish these words as you burn my feelings i will be gone soon and if not i wonder how it will end i have so much hurt inside can i overdose on that?i know you all can see but it is so common so you just plea to be let of this misery i believe in after life but why would you wanna be sent back to the hell they descended you from so the poisons pumped in there is enough for you stick right in between you thought and feeling
this is the sick truth every one is affraid to say but what is it to me?