Without you

I can taste the insecurity
Feel the tension creep up on my shoulders
The weight on my chest makes it harder to breath
My wandering mind, harder to see
I crave the comfort you used to provide
Every day, every night
Insomnia is my new best friend
Loneliness, forever a mother to me
Bite marks and razors, keeping my heart from beating
Laxatives and bulimia, keeping me from eating
Tears no longer escape from inside
Scars and wounds still left for me to hide
Now that your not here, by my side