The waves, the wind
This wall is coming down
One last breath, sweet surrender
My defenses fall to the ground
This unwanted feeling keeps finding me
It’s breath against my skin
No longer can I fight this battle
My heart refuses to let me win
I wish I never met you
I’d never have to care
Never would I be left alone
Whenever you aren’t there
Better judgment always with me
My senses no longer bare
I’m sick of everyone around
Their ultimate excuse is that they care
Yet they don’t seem to understand
So I’m left without a chance
Again I’ll put on this smile
Pretending its all okay
Nobody knowing these tiring thoughts
That I’m too scared to say
If the words all expect to hear
If the truth escaped my lips
Faces would turn away
Not one comforting shoulder would stay
Not one would understand
Because of you everyone sees me
As simply young and naïve
But even little girls have hearts that bleed
I know you won’t bother
But couldn’t you just
Mend me
Understand me
Just don’t
Abandoned me
You make me hate who I am
I never asked to feel this way
I hate the way this is all so wrong
And how this is making me no longer feel strong
Now I’m just another girl
Too ignorant to find her way
So everyone else fixes my mistakes
Erasing the wrong steps I take
And the wrong words I say
I try to push their piercing words
Out from all of my thoughts
For they shouldn’t hurt so badly
Like the beginning of a small tidal wave
The effects of the flood have yet to be seen
But my minute attempts
To show you just how much you mean
Will never recede
Like sun tries to save the darkened night
I want to fix you
Make everything alright
I hate how you make me worry
I feel so isolated
And you’re the one to blame
Never did I dream that knowing you
Would result this way
Never did I know that these feelings
Would cause everything to change
It’s pointless for me to hope
Not worthy to be apart of my dreams
So if I just forget it will all be okay
Until then I’ll keep pretending
That I don’t care at all
I’ll sit back and let everyone else break my falls
I wish I could runaway
Sit on top of the highest mountain
Where everything seems much clearer
I just need to get the ground beneath my feet
Standing all alone
Among the pouring rain
These thoughts are smothering
Bury me
Break me
Fix me
Just don’t judge me
I thought you’d understand
I thought that you would be here by now
Looking down
I can’t do this alone
For fear of falling harder
I’m plummeting toward the Earth
Like the fallen rain
With no one at the bottom waiting
So save me
Catch me
Love me
Hold me
Don’t ever let me go.
