Lost Little Girl

The little girl sits crying drowning in her grief
Even the small things can make her weep.
She prays for someone to help her, because she is burning inside
But no one sees it because she is fine on the outside.
Anger fills her body, roaming around
It is too much for her to take, she falls to the ground.
She feels as if she is trapped and locked against a wall
But no one can save her, no one cares at all.
Her family and friends have long ago gave up
She is a thirteen year old who has given up.
Pain and hurt fill her heart
Each adding another hole and tearing it apart!
So what does the little girl do to make the pain go away?
There are no words or notions she can do or say
So she decides to take the easy way.
The day comes and she desperately trying to reach out for help, but no one sees
She is all but begging them please, to love her.
She does not want to end it but there is just no way out
Maybe this will get her parents attention when they find out!
As she takes the knife and carries it to her room
She is surrounded by a cloud of gloom!
No one tried to get to know the person she was within
In her parents eyes she could never win!
The little girl sat crying begging for the lord to forgive her for all her sins.
Trapped against the wall she sat fragile like the child she really was within.
Her body was cold and frail
Her skin so white and pale
But she hoped God would forgive her and not banish her to hell.
She grabs a hand full of pills, swallowing each with care
Screw the world no one seemed to care.
When she awoke she would be in a better place
And all the pain and bad memories would be erased.
Taking the knife she finished the job she sought out to do
Ending her short lived life she left a few words for all of you;
Goodbye family and friends I loved you all to death
I did not want to do this I regretted it even to my last breath.
Mom, I wish you could have told me you loved me more than once a year
And dad I felt like you could not even see me as if I were invisible or clear.
I loved you both with all my heart
And thats why it tears me apart,
I had to end it like this
But when you think about it will I truly be missed.
Brother I loved you with all of my being
And I know it will hurt you the most just seeing,
Me lying here crumpled and gone
But it wont be long
Until you accept that it was for the best.
You were the only one that really cared; I could see that every time looked in your eyes
You were the only one who could silence my cries
And I am so sorry it had to end this way
But I just did not see any other way!
I used to search for a place to hide
Running and crying, killing myself on the inside.
Do not cry for me, because I have shed enough tears to fill lakes
Think of it this way, everyone makes mistakes.
Regardless of how I was treated, I loved you all unconditionally
And nothing will ever change the way I felt.
I was just playing with the cards that were dealt.