Kiss Me Goodnight

It's not that you can't see
Truth is, you just don't care
For I'm nothing more to you
Than a daughter you can't bare

I can feel it in your hugs
And the fake smiles you paint on
I can feel it when i walk in the door
Like you wish I was still gone

Every word you speak of me
I hear, and oh they're vague
When I try to kiss you goodnight it seems
You'd rather have the plague

Mother I try to do you right
But being weak makes me do wrong
Every time I try to make you proud
I just prove I'm not that strong

I ask you now, why bother trying?
If I accept that I'm a failure
I'd rather pack and leave my life behind
So you can go back to how you were

I don't want to rain on your parade
Or ever jeopardize your career
So I'll leave you when you're sleeping mom
And you can forget that I was here

I'm sorry for the 'dramatics' again
Obviously you don't realize I'm a mess
I'm just so tired of this life and you
Can't possibly think of me any less

You say suicide is for the weak
Well, name me of the weak
And realize I'm in capable
Of surviving. So to speak

Would you like me to 'just go'?
And finally get out of your sight?
Mom would you rather mourn a daughter than
Just kissing her goodnight