I'll Hide My Guilt Forever

I don't tell you my secrets,
My trust comes at a cost
My broken heart's so protective
My confidence is lost

Im so guilty on the inside
Though I'll never let it show
I'll be strong and wont break down
So my secrets you'll never know

I hide my guilt behind a laugh
And bravely fake another smile
Then when no-one sees right through me
I know It's all worth while

I hate myself for what happened,
I know that im to blame
Im the only one who knew
Who could've stopped your pain

Im the reason for you pain and hurt
And I'll never forgive myself for that
So I'll break the walls of my life right down
And I break our suicide pact

I will be the first to leave
The first of us to die
But promise me when I'm gone
You will never cry

It's not your fault I am gone
I put you through the pain
Im the one who could of stopped it
I'm the one who is to blame

Im so sorry, please forgive me
But I could no longer live a lie
It's my fault that he attacked you
And for that I have to die

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