The Hospital Room Part Two

My insides are churning
I can feel tears welling inside
the doctor doesn't look happy
Oh God please don't you have died.

He starts to speak but i can't hear the words
I wonder 'why oh why
has this disaster occurred?'

The doctors eyes are dead
dead void and blank
he's faced too much death
and now his heart has sank.

I'm very sorry,' I hear him say
I sink to the floor, my tears falling down that way.

'There was nothing we could do,'
He finally said
My eyes were still closed
I refused to believe that you were dead.

But sooner or later
I had to face the facts
Tears streamed down my face
as I removed things from your medicine rack.

I went to your funeral
I didn't know how to deal
All i knew was that this pain inside
I just didn't want to feel.

It's so hard to believe you're gone
Gone just like that
My whole world suddenly feels
so empty broken and flat.

I miss you so much
I don't know what to do
Without you around
all i am is sad and blue.

All I can do is cry
I'm a mess inside
these past few weeks
I've done nothing but sat down and cried.

I wish things could be different
wish things don't have to be this way
Wish that you hadn't gone
wish that everything was okay.

My whole world is empty
what I once knew is gone
My world exploded into pieces
like a set off bomb.

My eyes are swollen
my throat is sore
I don't know if I can take this
Take this anymore.

I just want to stop hurting
I don't want to cry
and I wish I'd had the chance
to say my final last goodbye.

I don't know how to cope
I don't know how to get through each day
All i want is you back here
Why did you have to go away?

**Not True, The Poem Just Came Into My Head**