I don't know how I got this far

I don't know how I got this far.
I don't know how I could just leave us all alone,
I don't know how to live,
If there isn't a life to start with, one to call my own,
So If I just bleed and fall through the veins of death,
Would I fall and lose my breath,
So hard to take life,
Rip it open with a razor-sharp knife,
I don't know how I feel,
to make this sound unpleasant and real,
This life we all call hell,
If I loved you and you loved me, how could I tell.
You left me here to die alone,
crying, no one to talk to on the phone,
screaming and aching with heart burning pain,
these four lettered words are making me go insane,
If I fall too deep,
Will you wake me from my sleep,
If I drown in bloody water,
will you risk your life for me,
or should I just not know what to do,
I am slipping away from you.