The End

I sit here and wonder
About how my life could've been different
If just one little thing would've went my way
But now it seems like just a dream
As i sit here and try to face reality
So many things have happened in such a short time
My dad is gone forever
My mother's drinking has become heavier
I have turned to the knife
To help deal with all of my strife
And it doesn't end there I could go on for hours
Everything good in my life
Seems to disappear as quickly as it came
I'm never happy for very long
Something always comes along
And at the moment my wrist is bleeding more heavily
Than it ever has before
I believe I've gone too far
I feel myself start to fade away very quickly
I fall to the floor and shut my eyes
And I begin to cry
This is not how I wanted my life to end
I pray to God my family forgives me
And I hope with all that I have left that they understand
I die wishing that my life didn't have to end this way
But there is nothing left that I can do
The damage has already been done