Pain

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i dont know what to do with all this pain,
i feal like cuttin my wrist and watch the blood go down with the strain of my pain
i cant visulize my life without this stress and heart break,
i dont know how to tell everyone that i was a mistake.
i dont know what to do with all this pain that i can let evey one see,
it will give them a reason not to be wanting to be friends with me.
their is no way out if this life except for death,
but sometimes i think that would be the best.
for me that is the way i feal,
as i watch myself open the bottle and pop another pill.
after the second bottle everything goes black,
i can see the light so i know they are tryin to bring me back.
in the hospital bed thats were i lay wishing i was dead,
i grab the for my 45 to pop one in my head.
i wake up and see my friends and family around my room,
they told me that what happends when the gun goes boom.
in an all dark haze things all blurry,
i tell everyone not to forget about me and not to worry.
this is cause of the strain,
now im in the hospital bed laying in pain.
the line of life starts to dissapate and go thin,
i feal the room start to spin.
im gone,im lost,im dead,
thats the out come of me putin that gun to my head