â??The painâ?? The pain I felt when u left, The pain I felt when u put that gun To your head. â??o my god I cant believe your deadâ?? The pain I go through knowing your not alive, The pain I feel knowing u arenâ??t in my life, The pain I felt when I found out your dead, The pain I feel when I visualize U putting that gun to Your head. The pain and suffering of knowing I cant talk to you The pain and suffering of the thought of u Not being around kills me. The pain I felt when we lost u that day, The pain I felt when I decided To pray. In loving memory of Parker Smith. We all miss you. 1987-2003 This poem is dedicated to my boy Parker. you ar missed by all friends and family..i will always miss you and wont forget you..i just wish i could know whay u diid what you did cause it was shocking to us all.u are in a better place now and i am glad that u are happy... in loveing momory of Donald \"Parker\" Smith..we miss you