Life to Death

Found guilty was the last thing I heard
remembrance of my painful end
As my life was shattered before me
Just knowing it would never mend

Blameless and ashamed I pity myself
for no one else did this crime but I
Full aware of my existence
But at the moment was forced to deny

Been serving fifteen full years in prison
For a rage that left me broken
Owned by the bars of this room
as a reminder; as a token

Mortification takes over my body,
humiliated by the truth I’m unwilling to face
Could have been enjoying my life at thirty-eight
But instead I’m a living disgrace

I’m aware why I deserve such retribution
Only if I can turn back time
Its too late I’ve made that choice
Now karma is the only solution

Was sexually abused at the age of twelve,
raped at seventeen,
Lost my innocence and trust for the world
and forced to become an independent teen

Fell in love with an older man
accepted me into his home
Showed me how love really felt
Outside the outer world zone

Fantasy ended merely three years
Physical and emotional abuse I had to endure
Beatings to death was my circumstance,
for I was not worth him anymore

One darken lonesome moment
Drunk he was that night
Mocking words of death
So was left to put a fight

Took out the gun from the closet
and aimed it to his chest
Astonished, I notified the police
from then I was under arrest\

My life took a turn that night
Now I suffer from repentance
biggest mistake I’ve ever made
as I face a life long sentence

Moral: Always think before you do something

-Amanda