Too Much To Ask.

I'll never be good enough
no matter how hard I try.
I'll always lose a smile
that turns into a small cry.

Bruised and beaten as
I crawl on the cold floor.
My poor little heart is
worthless then before.

A blaze of crimson anger
struts through my face.
Down of an agony life
for I can't get back in place.

Don't you see what's
going on in my mind?
Can't you see the pain
that I've had to hide?

I know you don't because
you're wrapped in yourself.
Keep acting like that you'll
be a lonely book on a shelf.

Where can I go when I
need a should to lean on?
How can I come over my
tears I've had so long?

I know you don't want me
around because it's true.
Friends, what's that, because
I know thats not you.

I'm tired of being in the
background of your shadow.
I don't want to be hidden as
if I'm sneaking in your window.

Why am I so different that
I just can't be talked to?
Is it my hair, clothes, or the
money I don't have like you do?

My heart is split to the bottom
as if an Axe went through.
All I need is a friend; Is that
too much to ask for too?