Death's Embrace

It was going so, so well
But now I am back in Hell
I thought I found true friends
But now I want my life to end.

I thought I was going to be okay
But here's another sad day
I thought things were finally going right
But now my world isn't so bright.

My world shattered into pieces
which I slowly put back together
But now I know when I'll be okay
and the answer is never.

I kept trying to do what was right
But now I don't even want to fight
I'm ready to give up and give in
I really don't care if this is a sin.

Each day I put on a fake smile
Knowing that it will only last a while
I'm heading towards Hell
Am I the only one who can tell?

The devil himself dwells inside of me
I've resigned myself to the fact he'll never set me free
I struggle to keep on trying
He laughs because he knows I am dying.

The skin on my arms was free for so long
Now it shows the scars of everything that is wrong
I hadn't hurt myself for so long
But now I know I'll never be emotionally strong.

I can't even cry now
I no longer know how
I am dead on the inside
emotionally I have died.

I thought I had things to live for
Friends, family, happiness and love
Thinking once it all ended
I would be taken by above.

But now I know
Heaven has no place for me
Deep in Hell
Is where I'll forever be.

I'm getting weaker
and the devil inside knows this
I know that very soon
I will feel death's kiss.

I sit here on the floor
Staring blankly into space
Come on then Death, take me
I'm ready for your embrace.