I'm Sorry Part Two

I repeat, I'll remain sad
Sad and blue
I know that's what I deserve
And that is true.

If only I could go back in time
If only I could undo what's done
I'd change everything that happened
I'd make this a battle won.

If only you'd forgive me
If only you'd listen to my plea
If only you'd try and forget
and finally set me free.

I don't love you like I once did, that's true
But no longer do I hate you
All I feel is sadness for the strife I caused
I keep silent, I don't know what else to do.

Sometimes I pray one day
We'll emerge as friends
But I know I'm just fooling myself
This pain can't be fixed nor mend.

I know this deep inside
So why do I keep wishing things to change?
Deep inside me is a huge mess of conflicting emotions
making me feel weak and strange.

I miss the fun times we had
and the laughter that we shared
I miss the comforting feeling of knowing
that you were someone who truly cared.

I can't change the past
I can't erase the pain
But I have to get my feelings out
Before I go insane.

You'll probably never read this
These words to you I'll never say
but deep down inside
I pray that you're okay.

I hope that things are going right
And that you're still strong
And I pray no one will do what I did
and treat you oh so wrong.

In my own way I really did care
In my own way I really did love you
Although I started this as a game
At the end my love was true.

In a way I'm glad you deliberately hurt me
In a way I'm glad you made me cry
For now I see how cruel I was
and the hurt that's caused by a lie.

And though we no longer talk
Though you wouldn't believe me
I'll keep trying to fix this
By being true, the best person I can be.