THIS REALITY

I cant help how i feel,
this suxs that its real,
why do i luv u so,
i need so bad to let u go,
hope it works out,
if thats what ur about,
wish it was me,
& we get a chance to b,
but thats not my luck,
& i think shes yuck,
but do what u do,
guss i already knew,
so now it stuck this way,
& i cant get a hey,
i dont understand u,
or ne thing u do,
so now i feel the same,
& think this is lame,
what am i to do,
when all i want is u,
do i pretend to be glad,
cuz i hate bein mad,
so now what do i do,
cuz remember who taught me, u,
so now what to think,
i see the clues all link,
& they bring u to her,
now the last 5 yrs a blurr,
so eventully i wont care,
& at ur heart i hope it tares,
cuz then u would feel my pain,
even tho i say it in vain!