No!

Im just so full of life these days
it seems Gods put me in a choice of new ways
im so happy and so deeply in love
me saying this, its something i never dreamed of

no more addiction to my E.D.
when i look in the mirror, im happy with what i see
no more starving myself to be thin
i keep my food down- keep it within

no more deep cuts on my legs and arms
i dont pleasure myself with harm
i threw my blades and knives away
no longer under my mattress for display

hahah!! didnt all that seem so real?!
yeah, the more i lie
the more people believe me when i say Ive healed
its my great disguise

f u c k no im not full of life these days!
im dying so fast, i can feel myself decay
i dont love my new boyfriend
s h i t, i still wish my last relationship didnt end

my E.D. is so out of control
but at least the fat, it stole
i didnt stop purging on the bathroom floor
ha, i just blast the music, and lock the door

no more cuts on my legs and arms that are deep?
hahah! i cut so close to the vain it puts me to sleep!
i didnt leave my blades and knives behind
they just have a new place to hide

now, didnt that seem more realistic to you?
yeah...i thought so
the pain is harsh and true
next ill just say im fine... but i really mean no!