Lost

So torn on what do
with this demon lurking inside.
I try to get away
but there's nowhere to hide.

I can't run fast enough to escape
despite what I once thought.
Love is supposed to bring happiness,
but torment is what it's brought.

So lost on this lonely, darkened road,
with my destination out of sight.
Squinting I can barely see
the quickly dimming light.

Don't know what I'm supposed think
or which step to take next.
The initial problem is taken care of
but the one remaining is too complex.

Don't want to leave, don't want to stay,
not sure which one to choose.
Without knowing for certain either way
my heart continues to bruise.

Crying myself to sleep at night,
sobs and tears are my lullaby.
Wanting to believe that it isn't true
when something different, intuition implies.

Not sure if I can go on like this,
not knowing either way.
Don't want to end it before I see your face
and hear what you have to say.

My heart is nearly shattered,
with this whole thing causing it pain.
Only time will tell
if "we" can still remain