Living with this pain.

I cant live with this pain,
Having nothing to gain,
I want it all to go away,
I wanted nothing to do with it anyway,
I want to die,
I don't want to cry,
So many thoughts,
All the good things she brought,
Everything feels like its gone,
The light has not shone,
Only dark sky,
I still want to know why,
Why not die,
Why not ever cry,
Why try and start over new,
When theres nothing for you to do,
Why not die,
And never have to try?
I cant live with this pain,
Theres nothing left for me to gain.