My Nightmare

Sick of trying,
sick of crying.
Hiding behind
broken eyes.
No one knows the reasons,
seems to care why...
They all say "oh we want
to help you..."
Why must they try??
I know it's not for me.
Its to make THEM better.
Everything around me
is just tumbling down.
Why can't it all go away,
Why cant I be free?
I laugh too loud,
I hide my pain.
I pretend every thing's perfect,
No one can see through all
of the fakeness...
They cant see...
its not like they want to...
or even that they care.
They just want to pretend to be on my side.
How can I prove to them
that everything's okay??
How...when I know nothing is...