The Day That Ends Me

I feel so lost and lonely
Just dreaming on the 'if only'
But knowing it will never happen hurts more
And never knowing what I am here for
I don't want to live another day
Not if my life is going to be this way
Why is my life like this? What did I do?
Why is it that this is what I'm put through?

That's it I cant take it, I'm going to die
But please no one, do not cry
For my life is not worth is, that's true
And when I was writing this where were you?
I'm in the bathroom now, with many sharp things
Or maybe I should over dose- that doesn't sting
No! I want to feel the pain as I go
So I'm reaching for the blade on show

Pressing down tightly against my arm in my lap
Drowning out my life's horrible map
Blood is pouring everywhere, it's all over the floor
But I'm still here, I must need more
Why am I still here? Why doesn't it sting?
I want my life over, I'm not worth a thing
But as I go for more I cannot see
Everything's blurry finally it's the end for me
I fall to the floor, where my blood lay
And here is where I shall stay

Until I m found, by the person who's too late
That person should have been here, she's my mate
But my life is over now
Everyone asking 'why' and 'how'
But no one will ever no my pain and sorrow
No one was there, it was always tomorrow
But that day never came around
This is why I lay here without a sound.