In denial I will die

You passed away
just a few days ago
and it just hit me today
you really did go

i believed it to be a lie
you never did leave me
but Sunday is your funeral
now the truth i do see

but why did you do it
why didn't he save you
you loved him so much
and all he did was hurt you

he told you to pull it
you were better off dead
is that the only reason why
you put a bullet in your head

that was no reason
to go and kill yourself
i had so much pain
and now no help

no body will understand
because nobody will know
i wont tell a single soul
that you did have to go

they will ask about my tears
but i cant bear to explain
knowing you died hurt
but telling will cause great pain

i cant bring myself to smile
and its hard to hide the tears
i just lost my best friend
for 7 whole years

i never thought anything
would happen to you
but i was just wrong again
but i will always miss you

i just got the call
a few hours ago
why didn't i see before
when your pain didn't show

nobody is happy
for 6 whole days
something had to go wrong
with the lies we say

but now i lost you
and all i can do is cry
so ill just say i am fine
and in denial i will die